I participated in an operation in Gaza for two weeks. We went through a lot of incidents. We were always getting shot at but usually it was fine inside the tank. One day, we were in a convoy being led by my Commander. Right in front of me, they rolled over an IED and the tank exploded into the air. My Commander and everyone in the tank was killed in front of our eyes.
Then, all hell broke loose and we were attacked on all sides until rescued. I became a Commander in his honor. But, the worst part of my time there was something else. We were getting fired on by a terrorist and, as the gunner on my tank, I had to take him out. It was necessary and it saved many lives but I hate that I had to do it. 3 years ago I suffered from terrible PTSD, I couldn't even hold my daughter because I was afraid I would experience a flash back and drop her. And, again, this year, with all the attacks, I can't sleep because I am always waking up with nightmares. Through therapy I realize that I am bothered both by the lives that were taken from us and the life I had to take.
Ohad was tattooed October 25, 2018 by artist Brian Kaneko at the Haifa Museum of Art.